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Hmmmm Have not used a journal site in so long. That's because not much has happened in my life, with the exception of the past year. Over the course of a year I have made changes in my life. Changes that I believe made me a better person. But as of late my life has been burdened with failure. I have been a failure many times in my life and I tend to get over it because no harm has come to anyone. It's only now that someone close to me is being hurt and that makes a world of difference. I wish I could re assure her that it's going to be okay, that we are going to get through it, but it's hard when your not there. Long distance does not help at all and i've been distant. This job has caused so many problems. I remember when I first got the job.... it was soo exciting to be employed. But as the months rolled on there's been some definite changes in our lives. These changes make it so that we are essentially no longer a couple... I mean WHAT THE HELL MAN!!! This isn't fair to her and it's not fair to me. But the current crushing reality is... we need this job to survive

I love you Mandy. I want to be there for you. I don't want to crush your spirit because it's so awesome -_-..... Things are hard for us right now, but we can get through it. I know we can. It's not going to be forever this job. I'm hoping when this job ends, your still there........

Love you soo much it's retarded.